Saturday, December 14, 2013
UNTOLD STORIES---PART 2: ROADSIDE PROPHET
WHAT'S HE REALLY SAYING/DOING?
I've seen many and so have you----decided to engage this gentleman---see if I could get a new slant. He told me his personal story: was a drunk---got saved---found conventional churches unsatisfactory---felt "called" to take his message directly to the public. Been at this for some years now.
Has three dogs for company---mother and two pups---they sleep with him in the mini-van in a secret location at night.
Then we get to his "message": Churches have it all wrong, he said---pointing to scripture to prove his point. His theology is convoluted ----difficult to summarize.
What interest me is his GALL---to declare himself---go PUBLIC---along the roadside--override the shame/embarrassment of doing so in this manner. I asked if he likened himself to old testament prophets---they too were often odd outsiders. He said yes.
He and his dogs sleep, eat and live here.
his home a metaphor for the chaos in his head.
RANDY PHILOSOPHIZES: What he does not lack is PURPOSE and identity! He is vigorously ON PURPOSE and he's positive that he is a child of God. He aches to be understood however. (I can do that and more: I can appreciate--and I did. It's my payment for the story---I also gave him money)
I weep for this man like I weep sometimes for myself and all humanity---burdened with existence without an obvious point. He DECLARES his purpose----without any proof. AND THAT IS WHAT WE ALL MUST DO. There is no proof to any point of living----only confirmation by others. We are all like the Mormons and other religions--generating a comforting culture and a chorus of consensus---without an ounce of proof.
But this oddball man is hanging out there all alone---without a chorus of confirming friends. Holding maverick views that the world will never even listen to. Weep with me for him and all his kind. Only the love given him by his dogs keeps him marginally sane.
And to make good on my title question: What he is really saying is NOTICE ME. What he is really doing is PUSHING AWAY NOTHINGNESS.